A Tragic Amusement

It's been about 3 months since I've last blogged, and thats sad.
Things that have happened

• Lost a lot of important people
• Gained people that are WAY more important than them
• Recording an EP
• Possibly selling my guitar
• Schools over
• Camp started
• Seussical the Musical (Sour Kangeroo)
• Creepy Lizards
• Made awesome internet friends via youtube & twitter!

Thats about all I can think of that truly matters in my mind.

Oh! and got a phone call from Zac Seif, (whoops) Damn Hackers posting people's number on the web. Damn curiostiy making me call, and Damn Zac for calling me back! haha <3

Tootles for now.

"Until this moment, I never understood how hard it was to lose something you never had.”

-Unknown

Time Flys By

I havnt blogged in such a long time,  I dont really know why.

The internet has just lost somthing, I'm not really only on all my websites anymore.

friends, guitar, and school seem to over power the online fun.

Now, I'm sitting in my office and listening to this band called "the Script" they're really good.  Sound a bit like The Police.

Thanks to Aeden for introducing me.

I'll try to start blogging again

"Before the worst, before we met, before our hearts decided its time to love again"

-The Script

Keep It A Secret

Best Friends

For about a week, I was losing my best friends.  There wasnt really anyone to blame for that either, it just seemed that events took place and the outcome wasnt exactly favorable.

Now, stiches must be resewn and then, everything will be able to return to peace.

I guess I never realized how much these people mean to me, I mean, dont get me wrong, I knew they were important, but I didnt know they could cause tears for a fear of losing them.

New Friends

I am a social butterfly, and new friends come easliy.  I've made a couple of new friends recently.  One, means the world to me.  But, I'm happy these people are becomming friends, I never thought I'd like them, but fact of the matter, I like them a lot.

To Sum It Up

My friends mean the world to me, and I'm not sure they realize it.  So, I say now, I love all of you, and I wouldnt be the person who I am today hadnt you stepped into my life.

"Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky, there would be no love in my life, there'd be no world left of me."

- Leann Rimes 

A Closed Book

I havn't always been a closed person.

I used to be able to tell anyone anything.

However, events took place, I got hurt, and lost trust.

There isn't a soul in this world whom I can honestly say "I trust you, and I am willing to open myself fully to you and let you get into my mind" because I hide myself. Because every time I try to open myself to someone they seem to screw me over.  I guess its just bad luck.  But, I wonder how things could be if I tried to be open, if I tried to trust someone the way I used to.  It will take a while, so whom ever it is will need to have patience.

On another note, there is a person who knows me more than I know myself, and thats my mother.

and that scares the hell out of me.

"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you do not trust enough"

-Frank Crane

Long Silence

it's been a long time since I've last blogged.
I've been super busy with social and school life.

I wish I could catch everyone up with the events that have taken place.
But I'm not sure if I even remember the events that've taken place.

I know for sure there was 1. Chorus Line (amazing)
2. Saints and Sinners Tour (chilled with Hollywood Undead in their bus)
3. Memory Walk down Hollywood Beach (FRAT BOYS) haha
4. Ciera's house (where I am now, awaiting her awakening)
So, basically life's pretty chill. I'm waiting for somthing good to happen.
Hopefully it will.

“May the love hidden deep inside your heart find the love waiting in your dreams. May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays.”
-Unknown

To Many To Name

Tonight was The Talent Farm again (: *snaps*

All the bands I actually listened to were amazing.  Lets name them shall we?

1. Touchdowns

2.Robots & Butterflies

3.The Downtown Fiction

4. Thee Armada

5. Select Start

All the guys in these bands are super sweet and fun to chill with.  Especially Cameron (from TDF), Danny (from R&B), Matt (from SS), and Josh (from TA).  I serendaded Josh, Rubix Cubed with Matt, Talked with Danny, and Cameron is my new voicemail. 

I wish tonight would never end.  Sadly it does though.

Oh well, I've mustached many people and took worthy pics. (:

Life is good.

"In the end, it's not the years in your life that count.  It's the life in your years."

-Abraham Lincoln 

The Ready Set

I was planning on bloggng last night but, well, I got home and crashed.

Yesterday, was epic.  I didnt really have a full school day because of a chorus concert. So I missed half of my classes.

Then, after school I went to The Talent Farm to go see The Ready Set.

Jordan was chill and So was Andy and Tyler and George.

We all went Lizard hunting. (lmfao Don't ask)

I got home after this epic day, and crashed.

Now its 7 30 am and I'm wide awake with nothing to do. ):

"It is a happy talent to know how to play."

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Mitchell Goldstein

Mitchell Goldstein asked me to write him a song .

And I dont exactly know why I did. (I'll have to ponder that..)

Anyways, so I wrote the song, I still think its really bad, but others tell me they like it.  And Mitchell likes it.  So I guess thats all that matters. 

Anways, if you are curious enough to hear my song its on vicxtorixous.tumblr.com 

*pstt* You should totally get a tumblr. Just saying. (:

(:

"If you care at all, you'll get some results. If you care enough, you'll get incredible results"

-Jim Rohn

A Scary Slumber

15 hours.

15 hours.

15 hours.

I was asleep for 15 hours.  I didnt know anything that happened in real life.  But apparently my grandmother who has been in the Dominican Republic for 3 months came to our house.  

I'm not even sure if things did or didnt happen.  I had dreams.  A lot of dreams. A whole bunch of things happen and I wonder if any of them actually did happen.

I guess I'll have to find out.  I still feel like crap.  My head is pounding and I have a project to do.

"Life is somthing that happens when you cant get to sleep"

-Fran Lebowitz

Scared. Death. Save Me.

I dont really know what to write to express the feelings runing through my mind.
Normally, I'd be blogging about my day and the things I did, but they seem so minor to the emotional pain I'm facing at this moment.
The pain of almost losing a friend. The pain of not being able to go and give them all the help they need. The pain of feeling useless and wanting to be able to hold them and say "It'll all be okay" while you both cry together. It's a pain thats hard for someone like me to face.
All I can hope is that tomorrow I'll be able to hear the voice I long to hear. Shed the tears while we talk about our fears. I just want to know, everything will be okay. Because, my life has been impacted so much, that losing this person would tear me apart.


"More than one soul is lost in a suicide"
-Anonymous

Probably the most appropriet quote found yet. Thanks Cali.

Catching Up

I didnt have time to blog last night so I'll catch you up with my Valentines day.

First: Got up super early to go to Dearfeild beach to work. (I know it sounds like a drag, but it was a lot of fun) PLUS! I made 50 bucks. So, it was totally worth it.
Then: Got a text message from my wonderful friend Cali. She asked if I had plans (which at the time I did, but they were quickly cancelled) So, then I went to go see Coraline with Cali.
Coraline: Probably the best animated 3-D movie I have ever seen. I loved it and I suggest going to see it.
Coffee Scene: Hot guy playing the guitar. *he was 21 D:*
Got picked up: and went home.
Phone: For maybe 2 hours. I think I might've fallen asleep while I was on it. But I do remeber saying goodbye.

That concludes yesterday.

Today:
Sat around all day watching movies and now Michelle is on her way over to sleep over.
Today was successfully lazy.


"You can't imagine what a pleasure this complete laziness is to me: not a thought in my brain- you might send a ball rolling through it!”
-Leo Nikolaevich Tolstoy

Valentine Maddness

Friday the 13th. The supposed "unlucky" day of the year. However, for me it was quite lucky. (:
School was great, I didnt really have to do anything hard in P.E.
and No warm ups in choir. Plus people made fools of themselves in Acting and the supposed "quiz" we were going to have in Geography was cancelled. (: YAY!
After school was even better. (:
Justin and Cali came over.
Cali took amazing pictures and Justin was well, Justin. (:
We went to wendy's and acted like the losers we are. '
Back to my house to record Justin's valentines day song. (took FOREVER)
Then, it was arts and crafts time. I made an index card creation, Cali, just wrote words? and Justin and I togeather made a valentines day card.
Now, I'm writing this blog.
I think I'm seriously going to start an a capella group. Its all stuck in my head. (:

"Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful."
-Albert Schweitzer

An Endless Wait

Today, I went to Youth Group at my temple.
My friend and I always carpool because its just ten times easier. Well, this time my mother took and her mother was supposed to pick up. Youth group ends at nine.
9:10 "Call your mom and see where she is" she doesnt answer.
9:15 "Bro, seriously call your mom again, this is rediculious, where the hell is she. I want to go home!" again, she doesnt answer.
9:17 "You know what? Why dont you call your dad, he'll know where she is" he doesnt so he says he'll come. My friend gets worried about her mom.
9:30 *BEEP BEEP* and there she is driving down the carpool lane with a huge smile on her face.
"Sorry, I'm late, I was at the gym right down the street"
AT THE GYM.
Usually when someone needs to pick their child up they plan their evening around it. Making sure that they can do what they need and still be able to get their child on time. Which means that if you cant do what you want, sucks. You'll get over it.
But no, I sat in my Temple's car pool lane for half an hour waiting for my friends mother to come get me who was right across the damn street.
I get into the car, and guess what happens next? Lecture time.
Honestly, I cant stand when other people's parents lecture me. It's bad enough when my parents do it. Plus, I realize that I'm supposed to live each day like its my last. So STOP telling me the same story.
Basically, today was good, till school ended.
This week has been endless and I just want it to end.
Tomorrow really cant wait.
Tomorrow needs to come.

"How much of human life is lost in waiting?"
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Blank Page Syndrome

Self explanitory by title

...

I have no idea what to say.

"Writer's block is a fancy term made up by whiners so they can have an excuse to drink alcohol. Sure, a writer can get stuck for a while, but when that happens to a real author -- say, a Socrates or a Rodman -- he goes out and gets an "as told to." The alternative is to hire yourself out as an "as heard from," thus taking all the credit. The other trick I use when I have a momentary stoppage is virtually foolproof, and I'm happy to pass it along. Go to an already published novel and find a sentence that you absolutely adore. Copy it down in your manuscript. Usually, that sentence will lead you to another sentence, and pretty soon your own ideas will start to flow. If they don't, copy down the next sentence in the novel. You can safely use up to three sentences of someone else's work -- unless you're friends, then two. The odds of being found out are very slim, and even if you are there's usually no jail time."

- Steve Martin

Crush For Your Crush

At my school DECA is doing a "crush for your crush" fundraiser.  

I'm in the Drama club and Drama and DECA are tight.

We help them, and they well, havnt really helped us, but somtimes do.

So I'm sitting here, painting some poster for DECA. A "Crush For Your Crush" poster.  

*says in deep voice* Pay one dollar to give a crush to you're crush.

I'm not even sure what exactly it is.

But there is a message involved and boys wearing fairy costumes.

As Ansel Adams once said:

"There is nothing worse than a sharp image of a fuzzt concept."

A Wonderful Start To A Beautiful Beginning

I dont even know where to begin.

15 at last, and it feels so good.

Today was probably the best birthday of my life.

I had people in school saying Happy Birthday of course, but the best part, was the fact that my friends from a far away land came to visit me.

There was Justin and Ciera.  My loves.  Who came from Hollywood.  We had an adventure with Justin dancing to "Fer Sure" in his car while driving. (Video will be on youtube soon) Oh! By the way he was being a strip tease in an orange V neck.

Then, there was Dan, Colton, and Blake.  Dan the cookie man made me this HUGE cookie cake.  Colton sang to me, and Blake, well, I just met him (He's cool though)

All in short, 15 is starting out right. Lets hope it continues.

As my good friend Billy Shakespeare says 

All's Well That Ends Well.

First and Last

Today is my first day on this blogging website.  The reason I got it? Cali.

She told me she is sick and tired of all these horrible blogs people are writing and that I needed to make one.  So, I did, and here I am.

Today is also the last day I am 14. 

I think about the fact that I am 14 and I think "wow, am I really that young?" but then again when I think about how my brother's age of 17, I am in shock.  He seems really old and I seem really young. It doesnt make much sence to me.

I'm excited about tomorrow, some dear friends of mine are coming to visit me.

It shall be fun. (: